What Is True For Me Right Now - 4/?

What’s true for Me right now is that I’m resting in stillness. I’m cushioned in the crevice of deep listening. Listening within. And I’m remembering how I am my only source - so that level of listening is deeply beneficial to Me.

I’m being reminded of the clearing that happens after destruction. If You think about an apocalypse-esque movie, there is always some big destruction, tides rising, buildings falling, people screaming; and silence always follows. If that silence is approached with fear, that clear space can quickly fill up with the makings of worry, but approaching it with a sense of trust - that’s when solutions really emerge. Or so I think…I don’t really watch those kinds of movies.

Nonetheless, that’s how I’m currently feeling. Like the silence after destruction - I can continue to let anxiety fill the space with scrolling TikTok, binge watching Living Single for the 100th time (both things that I will surely be doing today), but for now, in this present moment, I’m allowing trust to take space in this silence.

This week, I noticed, too late, that my anxiety was guiding Me to some impulsive behavior. I only say “too late” because had I caught myself, my bank account would be grateful, but I also know that it’s really never too late. Life is in divine service to Me - I’m always given more opportunities to do things differently, or to not and to just think differently about those decisions. I ought to be as patient with myself as Life seems to be.

That’s what’s emerged from filling this silent space with trust. Grace and compassion for the person I am and an understanding that I am becoming who I’m meant to be, regardless, it sometimes just takes a bit of silence to notice my arrival.

Sending Love into this weekend and beyond. Be kind to yourself as You arrive.